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Consulting with the Future
I don’t know what age I began, I know I must have been quite young, but I learned to hate myself early on.
I began-what I didn’t know at the time-a repeating pattern of hypothetical revenge on myself. I wished I could go into the past when I made a decision or did something I regretted. (whether I did it or not so It also included things happening to me as a child but I hated the powerlessness regardless) I wanted to lash out at him. Wanted to hurt him for being ignorant, for being weak.
This eventually evolved (Future coming to present) throughout school Until eventually (Present has compassion for past) then realizes (Future would have compassion for present). DRAW THIS!!! TIMELINE
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What do you actually think is a huge strength of yours?
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I think I have a crazy level head about things. Maybe it’s from questioning god at such an early age, or (what I had feared that perhaps I was a sociopath. I also feared that I would come across as too detached, and well I still do at times if someone doesn’t really know me well.) Yet without realizing it I think I was practicing perspective shifts from a really young age to cope with strong regrets and emotions and the world just being.. disapointing. I think I’ve been able to make peace with it much quicker because of those things I did.
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I think I’m willing to change my mind about things by projecting into different perspectives, but not always to the degree of foresight I wish I could though I do my best.
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I think I’m on the path to being a free thinker. I’m not perfect, but I’ve come such a long way. I just think it’s harder than we ever give it credit for.